things are looking up at the moment... ok not "up" up, but better than that last post. this is kind of how i'm viewing my life:

a girl stands in a round room with nothing but doors around her. some are open, some are not. she looks through one and sees a path that looks beyond delightful. there is a smooth path leading away into a life full of professional success. no bumps in the road, nothing in the middle of the path, just a straight easy journy. as the girl starts towards that journy, the door is slammed shut. she tries and tries to get that door open, but there's no hope. its gone for good. she gazes at another open door accross the way and sees another tempting way, but again ends with a slam of the door. again and again, all the oppertunities she looks for ends in disappointment. the girl still gets up and goes to one more door. once again, this door leads down a straight and smooth path, but what waits on the other end is different. at the end of this trail stands a man. just the sight of the man's handsom face makes the girl bust into tears and she cant help but run full speed towards this goal, only to find herslef on the floor after having the door slam even harder this time. but No, this cant be the wrong way! it seems more perfect that any of the other ways she's seen or been down before. full of rage and confussion, she throws herself up off the floor and with all her might tries to break through that door. "this is the way i want! the ONLY way i ask for!" but still, the door doesnt crack. as the girl lays on the floor in tears, broken, hurt, and lost there comes the sound of footsepts from behind her that came out of almost nowhere. She feels the most gental touch of a comforting hand and her tears almost instantly stop. she turns to look at who it is that stands beside her only see the form of the most beautiful thing she could ever imagine. she is then lifted to her feet and guided to a door that is slowly opened. finally from the beauty behind her comes a voice just as wonderful.
what is it that she heard? well sometimes actions will speak louder than words. even though God may close the doors to the paths in our lives we want to go to, it doesnt mean that its all over. God will always be there by your side to pull you up when you fall, comfort you when you feel no comfort in anything else, and open your eyes to the door that He knows will soot you better. we may not like the path at first, and we may not understand why God has the plans that he does, as long as you realize, when one door is shut, theres something else God has in store for you. some times you lose sight of that as i have, but i've been lifted up and am looking for a new door.